It’s been an interesting couple of weeks, so interesting I find myself at a loss as to how to end this. Whatever task I choose, I fear it will be a bit anti-climactic for you. So.. I decided the logical conclusion was to do something that would bring me pleasure :)
Tomorrow I would like for you to spend some time as a houseboy. I know it would be a bit surprising to most of your Ladies if you suddenly got naked, donned an apron, and began doing chores so I will modify my standard houseboy attire. Ask your Lady what chore she would most like for you to complete around the house, don as little as reasonable to protect your body and not shock your Lady, and complete it. Cheerfully. With humming. And anything else that will let her know you are happy to please her ;) If you will be away from home the entire day tomorrow, then you may write me privately for alternate instructions.
I assure you I will quite enjoy imagining this.
As late in the day as possible *you* will choose whether you release, tease and stop, or not touch at all. Make your choice by deciding which option will make you feel most controlled. This may not feel to you as if you are being controlled at all, but remember – I told you to do this. It’s my choice.
Finally, when you have time to give it the attention it deserves, I want you to write here and tell me the things you’ve learned during this time and what (if any) of your attitudes toward dominance and submission have changed.
Lady Julia,
Thanks again. I completed my assignment. I will assist around the house like you say. I am going back on the road so I have a lot prep for that, but I will certainly do what my wife wants. I have been following the event even though my initial participation was over a week ago. I have not been doing the kink, but I have been doing the the service tasks as best I could. I did not think you would mind.
I decided not to touch today. Out of the three choices it is the one I least want to perform. It feels like the right choice. Not sure why I feel that though.
After I digest things I will respond with what I learned about myself and about the event.
I really appreciate the effort you made during this event for us.
Warmest Regards,
Mike
Mike, of course I did not mind, I’m very pleased you performed the service tasks. You seem to have a very caring heart.
Day 13 for Rumi “Houseboy”: The day is not over yet, but I just had to share what so far has been one of the most wonderful days of my life. I woke up this morning at six, and went immediately to my kneeling space, stripped down and laid the eight cards out face up on the towel. I took some deep breaths and let every muscle in my body relax. I closed my eyes and almost immediately felt a wave go through my body, a wave of gratitude. I am grateful to you, Lady Julia, for the time and energy you devoted to creating this space and time. I am grateful to myself for letting go, for this time at least, of all the resistance and denial I have employed over the years to avoid embracing my own true nature. And I am grateful beyond tears and words for the Lady that chose to share Her life with me.
I chose to remain a chaste and reverent houseboy until my Dear Lady goes to sleep tonight. If I have any energy left I will lay out the cards and pick.
My houseboy uniform: Crocs, no socks. Silk boxers, white chinos, white shirt, and a white cotton hoodie for outdoor duties. First the regular Sunday routine. Feed and walk the beasts, grocery shopping, newspaper and donuts, some nice chocolate strawberries and small canellonis for late coffee.
On a usual Sunday afternoon, I go off to the pub to play the tunes with a gang of musicians. I called the fiddler to tell him I wouldn’t be there today, and when we hung up, I just broke up laughing. This day is going to be so much better than playing tunes….
Day 13 “Houseboy” (continued): Thinking more about gratitude, I am so grateful to my fellow travellers on this amazing journey. We have all opened ourselves to overcome the resistance within us to just surrender and allow all that joy to fill us. Reading your posts has helped me immensely in keeping true to the agreement we all made with Lady Julia to obey her instructions and suggestions.
I had asked my Dear Lady last night what chore she would most like me to complete, and she just sort of growled, which I translated into a list of innumerable tasks not done during the two weeks she was pretty much stuck in bed with pain. She is feeling so much better now and getting out and around. When she got up for coffee and the paper, I stripped and changed the bed linen, folded and put away all the clean clothing that had stacked up on the hope chest, singing to myself all the Bruce Springsteen songs we both love. We spent the afternoon out and about, then home for dinner and tv in bed.
Oh, I wanted to mention the love letter. I wrote fairly briefly and said I felt like I should be doing a lot more around the house, etc.. Her reply was more brief:
“your fine.. I’m fine… we”re fine..
I LOVEYOU and you do plenty”
Reading that felt better than any orgasm in every way. I am just now seeing how true it is, and it was evident in every moment of this day. This experience has made me aware for the first time in a long time how much I enjoy pleasing, serving, defending and just plain being with the Queen of my Heart. Thanks again, Lady Julia, for guiding me to the edge. I jumped, and I can fly!
So sweet :)
I kept her suspisions under wrap by negotiating chores and cooking with the Superbowl. Being so cold here, “little as reasonable” became a pair of silk drawstring trousers and a tight longsleeve T-shirt. I did wear my tennis shoes and some socks – 4 items of clothing.
Chores completed:
Cat box, cat food and water
Two loads of laundry (properly sorted) dried folded and put away
Cleaned the kitchen and unloaded the dishwasher
Swept the floor
Made a light lunch.
The whole time the silk kept me pleasantly aroused and this prompted her to occasionally pat me on the butt. I would have done more chores just for few little pats.
I cooked the chicken wings for the game, cut the celery and carrots and got the snacks ready for the game. It was a fun day filled with anticipation. We watched the game together and afterward I put all the dishes in the dishwasher and cleaned up the kitchen.
I then did what you told me to do and had a release. The arousal caused from my day made me feel the most controlled.
That leads into what I learned from this experience:
1. The mental control is more physical in this regard that physical control
2. Saying “yes” can be contolling as much as saying “no.”
3. Knowing that I can follow an instruction and that it is pleasing to another person is extremely satisfying.
Thank you so much for allowing me to have this experience.
Kaysnd
Kaysnd, that was wonderful.
I especially liked #2 :)
Lady Julia,
Vee had already been given my task for Sunday, so I didn’t need to ask. The task was not really in the line of houseboy, rather more in the line of secretary. I had to work on finishing a photo book that Vee wants to give to her sister for her birthday. The task involved scanning some photos, uploading them and other digital photos and then doing the book lay out. I provided the technical skill whilst Vee reviewed and approved. This would take up most of the time before I travelled to site again.
Often when we work on such a task together it ends in frustration or argument :-( Not so this time, I approached it with patience and cheerfully. We progressed well.I wore my long black pin stripped pyjama bottoms and a black tee shirt. That was all.
Whilst my task was not exactly a houseboy task, during the weekend I did the laundry and hung it up, made our bed and washed the dishes from all our meals. Vee received breakfast in bed every day and I helped with the cooking.
When I arrived at my hotel late at night I went into a bit of a “feedback loop”. Whatever I chose, release/tease/don’t touch – it seemed that it was not the option that made me feel most controlled since I had chosen it, so I chose something else – then back to the start again! In the end I decided to kneel and release :-)
During this experience I have learnt that:
Even after releasing, I can still submit and serve Vee. I receive more pleasure from the control of my orgasms than if I release whenever I want to. The control of my orgasms reinforces my submission. My submission encourages dominance from Vee. I need to control my masturbation more :-) I need to continue submitting and serving Vee and at the right moment discuss and request that she take control of my orgasms.
My view of Dominance and submission as a “yes/no” or “on/off” state has changed. I can see now that it is a continuum and from humble beginnings it can grow to be an important part of a relationship (and improving it). Also that D/s is definitely a state of mind first and physical second.
Again thank you for your expert mentoring. You are an excellent “teacher”
Jay
You are a pretty wonderful student, Jay. Of all the experiences I have done, doing this with you guys has been the best. Really :)