Jay

What a pity I don’t have your cell number. Would have loved to send you a text while you were in that meeting ;) (No, not asking – just saying it would have amped things up a notch or two :)

Back in my hotel room at the end of the day I kneel naked looking at the exitement of your control and the yet unturned card in front of me.

If I didn’t know better, I would think you were teasing *me* ;)

In any event releasing was nice, but not as nice as the other day. I think in part because I was not sure what would please you more.

It’s not the denial that matters to me – it’s the control. If I ask you to release five days in a row, that can excite me as much as denying you five days in a row.

Doing what I want when it’s what you want is easy. Doing what I desire when you desire something else… that’s wonderful :)

If I did not know better you are using what we write against us. You wouldn’t do that would you? ;-)

You know I will be thinking about this all day? Looking forward to it. Wondering if I will be up to the task. I am getting aroused typing about it. I hope you are smiling now.

I wish you could hear me laughing right now ;) You can easily hear it in your mind, though, can’t you?

Which is more exciting for you – following the luck of the draw or following my direct instructions? (That’s not a trick question :) Both are what I’ve asked you to do so either answer is ok with me :)

I am at an all day meeting with about 14 people. Your control is also in attendance. During the day I get a chance to read the poems which cause your expected effect….

Back in my hotel room at the end of the day I kneel naked looking at the exitement of your control and the yet unturned card in front of me.

I turn the card over and it is the Queen of Hearts :-) Release for the third day in a row!

I am taken by the intensity of the release.

Can’t sleep, first night in a new motel, so I thought I would post now.

This is still day 11 of my experience.

I drew the Queen of Hearts. I was faced with a dilemma. I was torn between following instructions as written or giving up releasing. I decided to follow instructions as written. I did this because not releasing was what I wanted to do more. This exercise is about doing what you wanted not what I wanted. In any event releasing was nice, but not as nice as the other day. I think in part because I was not sure what would please you more.

I never thought I would question whether I should release or not. In the past the decision was easy. I guess it is safe to say you are in control.

Obediently,

Mike

Thank you for allowing me to continue the experience after having to stop for a couple of days because of illness. I figured if I was well enough to drag myself to work today I should be well enough to resume the experience.

I was able to make it through the whole day without looking st my card until I got home. I did think about it a lot and the poetry was quite distracting.

The card I drew today was the Jack of Diamonds. I was very excited to get this card. I had yet to draw one naturally. I obeyed the card and your orders. It was difficult to stop but the ache I have felt ever since has been exquisite.

Thank You!
Humbly Yours,
Jason