My mind has being racing today. By 2:00pm and I couldn’t resist any longer, I looked in my wallet….it was the Jack of Clubs.

The release yesterday has not diminished the excitement of your control in the slightest. Why am I surprised at this?

“Budding D” is now back after two weeks away and the rule to not initiate sex is adding to my discomposure! She looks amazing laying asleep in bed naked and only half covered with a sheet. Today we had a maximum of 37ºC (99ºF) and it is still very warm.

Then I thought, maybe the instructions to your Dearest Pet were veiled instructions for me to follow ? That would be so hot! Could I release again today? Two days in a row? I re read your post. I almost convinced myself….then I snapped out of it….I have the Jack of Clubs.

So I will kneel and attempt to tease away my frustration….wishful thinking…

Very sad because that moment is gone. I can repeat it, but it will never be quite the same.

Well, no.. but there are so many exciting moments in life that can be ahead.

As to where I am going.. well, I am winging it :) I read what each of you write and then plan then.

I hope your personal issues get sorted out. Good luck.

I did my reading assignment. And then I saw the photo on your main site. Holy smokes. That just isn’t fair.

:-)

I am not complaining though.

Mike

Very relieved in a physical sense. However, I can feel the sexual energy coming back.

Very sad because that moment is gone. I can repeat it, but it will never be quite the same. :-( But a very bittersweet moment.

To answer your question about control versus denial. I have changed my mind about a 100 times. I found the denial exhilarating to say the least. But I would not have been able to do it without your control. I could not have done that on my own. So I think it is a chicken and egg thing. Each feeds the other. Kind of lame answer. But it is how I feel.

Awaiting instructions. I am very curious to see where you go from here.

Obediently,

Mike

A fella never forgets his “first time”. :-)

Smiles

I liked the story. It helped get me in the mood. :-)

Mike

Where to begin. I am day eight or nine in the experience without releasing. To say I was physically ready is an understatement. But I was not ready to end the denial phase. Had I drawn the Queen of Hearts on my own, I was going to skip it. I realize now that those were my wishes and not yours. My intentions were good if misguided. I hope you take it as a compliment.

The kneeling was a very nice touch. I start my martial arts classes kneeling in a very similar fashion. Different focus though. :-) It really helped me to concentrate on your instructions and wishes. I really wanted to make the experience count. So I took some time gathering my energy.

I was reluctant to start. Once started I knew it would end. I really took my time. I used every trick I knew to prolong the experience. Changing hands, tempo, pressure, mental focus etc. I kept coming up to the edge and backing off. As the intensity increased, the time it took to get to the edge kept getting shorter and shorter and shorter. Eventually I surrendered to the inevitable.

It is difficult to describe orgasms without resorting to cliches, but here goes. It was very intense. It was not localized. I felt it throughout by body. I was spent in many ways. The obvious way of course. But I was drained of energy. I had to lay there for a while to catch my breath and regain some energy before I could move again. The after-glow was tremendous. I just laid there and marinated in it.

This is the first time I went through something this intense. Thank you so much. A fella never forgets his “first time”. :-)

I am anxiously waiting for your next instructions.

Obediently,

Mike