I’ve decided to give each of you individual instructions during the time you are all obediently participating in this Queen of Hearts activity. Can you imagine how much more intensely you will feel the control? :)
So, Mike. Amp it up, eh? I think I will quite enjoy that. I just hope you don’t regret not being more careful about what you wish for ;)
Before I instruct you further I would like to know, are you willing to extend this experience until I am ready to stop? Perhaps it will be five days more, two days less. Of course, that’s a lot more control to surrender. Are you up to it? ;)
Lady Julia-
I am really looking forward to participating in the experience.
Please oh please tell me when I can begin. I’m so very excited and not just because I had to refrain from touching today. I am so glad I finally had to guts to participate in one of your experiences. It has been very gratifying and eye-opening for me.
Thank You Thank You Thank You,
Jason
Sorry I am being such a kiss-ass, I just can’t help myself.
I am willing to go for it. I will endeavor to do my best. Again it is a very heady mix of nervousness and anticipation. What is she going to do to me? Will I survive? Or more correctly am I up to the task. I don’t like to fail. My biggest fear in life is failing at things and letting people down.
About the picture. The young lady is very sexy, very sexy outfit, but the look in her eyes is devastating. Oy vay.
I must admit the experience is getting more difficult. Morning is the absolute most difficult time. I usually sleep in on Sundays. But today I got up early. Too tempting to touch myself. I don’t know if it is my dreams. I had another last night. I don’t remember what it was about. I did awaken flushed and on the verge of perspiring. Wow.
To answer you question from the other post. Touching and stopping is a lot more difficult than not touching at all. It is tough to “put on the brakes”. I just know I am going to regret saying that. :-)
Obediently,
Mike
Lady Julia,
Interim update:
Waiting for your response is more difficult than using the playing cards. The suspense is killing me. I am almost shaking. I am not complaining. It is a very uncomfortable, odd, but pleasant feeling. I am not at all trying to rush you. I just thought you would enjoy my predicament. :-)
Obediently,
Mike
Jason, go buy your deck of cards :) The day after you purchase them, you may draw your first card.
Sorry I am being such a kiss-ass, I just can’t help myself.
I recognize and understand enthusiasm when I see it :) I think it’s cute. (Cute is a compliment regardless what men think.) :)
Will I survive? Or more correctly am I up to the task. I don’t like to fail. My biggest fear in life is failing at things and letting people down.
You will survive. You will enjoy. You will succeed. Since I’m the one in control, I will make sure of it :)
Mike, have drawn your card for today and what is it?
Oh wait. It doesn’t matter. If you read this post before you act on today’s drawing, no matter which card is revealed, your card for today is the Jack of Hearts.
I like the Jack of Hearts. I think of him as a Knight for the Queen of Hearts. He wants to do whatever he can to please her and amuse her. He knows her well enough to understand she is really happy when he’s squirming and laughing in delight at his discomfiture.
Waiting for your response is more difficult than using the playing cards. The suspense is killing me. I am almost shaking. I am not complaining. It is a very uncomfortable, odd, but pleasant feeling. I am not at all trying to rush you. I just thought you would enjoy my predicament. :-)
I see you know me quite well :) I am most definitely smiling.
Lady Julia,
Jack of Hearts it is. I will comply with your instructions as soon as I am able.
You wouldn’t be using knowledge you gained about me against me would you? That would be so wrong. ;-)
By the way. Thank you. I like the idea of being a knight. I will take that as a compliment if you don’t mind.
Obediently,
Mike
Lady Julia,
It is funny how often I notice mistakes after I hit the send button on a post.
I do not presume to be one of your knights. I was commenting in regards to Queen of Hearts experience. I should have worded the last response a little better.
Regretfully,
Mike
You wouldn’t be using knowledge you gained about me against me would you? That would be so wrong. ;-)
Never, and of course it would be ;)
I do not presume to be one of your knights. I was commenting in regards to Queen of Hearts experience. I should have worded the last response a little better.
You’re worrying too much :)
Lady Julia,
Completed the assignment.
Starting then stopping is definitely more difficult than not touching. I so very much wanted to release. Still do. I mean I really want to. I can barely type, my hands are shaking.
Somehow I sense you are just warming up.
It will be interesting what dreams I have tonight.
Keep it coming please.
Obediently
Mike
Just curious Mike… how many days has it been thus far? … ;)
Fifth day if you count the day I bought the cards. I am really aching right now. I will definitely have trouble sleeping tonight.
I hope that helps you sleep. ;)
Mike
I had a rough night. I woke up several times. I am convinced it is due to my dreams. When I wake up it is with a start, very suddenly.
I finally woke up about 4:30. As I lay there it felt like my whole groin area was very warm, almost glowing, like it was radioactive. I tried to go back to sleep, but it was no good. I had to get up before I was tempted to touch myself.
I am feeling a tremendous charge of sexual energy right now. Wow.
I will draw a card again today. Unless you have other instructions.
Obediently,
Mike
Mike, today you’ve drawn the Queen of Hearts. Tomorrow, you will draw for yourself :)
Are your dreams good ones?
Lady Julia-
Thank You for allowing me this opportunity to feel your control again. I will purchase my deck of cards today and begin tomorrow morning. I wonder if I should binge today like people, myself included, do when they binge-eat before going on a diet.;)
Thank You!
Yours,
Jason
I rarely remember my dreams. Even after listening to hypnosis mp3s on lucid dreaming. I am not sure why. I did have really bad nightmares as a young child. Perhaps this is my subconscious mind trying to protect me. Who knows. I believe the dreams I just had to be good ones though.
I have a dilemma. Would it please you more for me to comply with your instructions? Or please you more to give you one more day of denial? Very tough choice.
I am not looking for a direct answer, unless it interferes with your overall plan and need you need me to comply as directed.
Mike
Mike, I know you are in the middle of some heavy work obligations. If you’re not sleeping well then I need to adjust my expectations and directions so that I don’t ask anything that interferes negatively with your life. It seems as if you are saying you think you are ok. If that is the case, then today you will behave as if you had drawn the Jack of Hearts again. If you are not ok, please write me privately and I’ll adjust your directions.
Jason, I don’t know if you *should* binge today but I am guessing you will ;)
I’m looking forward to seeing which card you draw first.
Lady Julia-
I have combed through all of the instructions I can find ans I’m still not sure when I am supposed to look at my card. I am sorry to bother you with this. If it is not too much trouble could you please give me some guidance?
Thank You.
Humbly Yours,
Jason
You’re no bother :) You’re eager to do as I ask. I like that!
Draw the card in the morning, but don’t look at it. Carry it with you in your pocket, wallet, briefcase, or something similar. Don’t look at it til right before you are ready to touch, tease, or not depending on the card. Do it as late in the day as possible so you can enjoy thinking about it all day.
Thank you Lady Julia for the clarification. I am glad that my eagerness is not too off putting.
I am very excited about starting this experience. In fact, when I went to the drug store to purchase the deck of cards, I had to sit in the parking lot for a while and wait for my excitement to dissipate before I could go in. It surprises me that this particular exercise is having such an effect on me. I really wasn’t expecting it. I suppose I just really enjoy submitting to your control.
Thank You for allowing me to participate.
Yours,
Jason
Considering my problem at the drug store this is probably going to be a lot harder than I thought.
Holding my breath,
Jason
Lady Julia,
I am fine. Thanks for the concern.
About last night.
I decided to go with the Jack of Hearts. I am beginning to doubt my ability to stop myself once I start. I lay in bed for about 10 minutes enjoying the delicious ache in my body before starting. I had to be very careful. But I complied with your instructions. To be honest I am not sure how much longer I can hold out before I succumb to the urge to release or start begging you to let me. The feeling is very intense. I wish I had the words to describe the dynamic tension I am feeling between wanting to release and to comply with your instructions. But it feels like my body is in a tug of war. It is an electric feeling.
I am feeling like a randy teenager again. A time in my life when I got hard every time a girl did something erotic. Erotic being something like smiling at me and saying hello. It is nice to feel young like that again. Thank you.
I am having an interesting side effect. I am feeling very virile, strong and masculine. I have had two great workouts this week. Classmates have even commented on it. Not what I expected from a submissive activity. But I like the feeling.
I would like to go another day please.
I will draw a card unless I receive other other instructions.
Obediently,
Mike
Mike, it sounds to me as if you are precisely where I want you to be ;) If you are having problems (like the inability to sleep) that cause conflict with your job, I’ll stop. If you’re having difficulty being obedient, well… you can continue til I am ready for you to finish, can’t you? I know you can ;) Feeling virile and randy.. those sound like good things :)
Draw your next card.
Lady Julia,
I slept better. I wish to continue. Actually you have helped me get up early in the morning. I am most aroused in the morning. If I linger in bed I know I will be too tempted to touch myself. So I get up right away.
I will do the very best I can. I am in uncharted waters. Very exciting. I don’t know how to predict my responses. I will draw my card.
Yes virile and randy are good things. Thank you.
Obediently,
Mike
I knew you would keep going even though things aren’t as easy now. You’re definitely a good boy :)
:-) :-) :-)
Lady Julia,
Day seven (eight?).
I drew the Queen of Spades. No touching last night. It was a relief not being able to touch myself. I never thought I would say those words. I needed a break from drawing jacks.
I had a good night. I woke early again. I indulged myself and lay in bed an extra 15 minutes. Enjoying the delicious ache in my body. I got up before I was too tempted to do anything.
I find myself wishing to draw the Queen of Hearts and hoping that I do not. I know that if I do draw the Queen of Hearts this experience will end. Even if it continues it will not be the same for me. I do really enjoy the dynamic tension of these feelings. Thank you so much.
I am hoping the experience will continue for at least one more day.
I will draw another card today, unless I receive other instructions.
Obediently,
Mike
Mike, actually I wouldn’t end with the drawing of the Queen of Hearts as it sends the message that when a man releases, the time of obedience is over. No worries, I know you’ll remain motivated because that’s what I want from you and you want to please me. That desire to please is greater than you concern about your physical situation (smiles – and I’m thinking that says a lot right now).
When I did this activity in TCOD, I kept it going for TWO weeks instead of one. Do you think you could surrender control for that long?
Yes, I would like very much to participate another week.
I will do my best.
Obediently,
Mike
Mike – thank you :) I’m happy about that.
Jason – I’m glad you are so excited :) Let’s slow down a bit, though, and you just check once more while you are at work, ok? Sometime later in the afternoon. Then you may check once or twice more in the evening. Let that curiosity about what is here be something that adds to your excitement :)
I will obey. Thank You for your instruction.
Jason
Jason: Good boy :)
Mike: Would I ever intentionally make you guys squirm?
Lady Julia,
Do you have a preference where we post? Do you want us to always post in the latest post you made? What is easier for you?
I drew the Queen of Clubs yesterday. No touching last night. Which in a way is a relief. I slept well. As usual during this event I woke up at around 4:30. This time time I had a snippet of what I was dreaming about. I was kneeling in front of you. I don’t remember much more than that. Mores the pity. It took me a while to come fully awake. Very similar to coming out of a trance. My whole body ached. I wanted to be touched so badly. Touched anywhere not just the obvious places. I had to clasp my hands to prevent myself from touching. Once again it forced me out of bed.
That was a most delicious experience. I wish I had the words to describe it better.
Obediently,
Mike
Mike, I would prefer you post in the comment section of the latest post I have made (as long as it has something to do with this activity). That way people reading can follow the flow.
I’m really enjoying reading about your feelings with all this. It seems that several days of denial is having a very strong effect on you :)