I’m quite excited to be doing this Queen of Hearts activity with you :) Tomorrow will be day one.
The basic instructions can be found here. Read them thoroughly.
In addition to those instructions, I would like for you to also answer the following:
When did you first realize you were submissive?
What appeals to you about submission and also hypnosis?
During the experience, as always, you will make certain this doesn’t interfere with your life in any negative way. If your partner initiates sex during this time then go for it – just don’t you initiate it.
You will post daily to let me know how you’re doing, what you’re feeling, etc. You will also check each day to see what new instructions or changes I may have left.
I’ll check back as often I can to answer any questions.
Warmly,
Lady Julia
The link to the instructions does not work. Are they the same as before?
See my responses below to your questions.
When did you first realize you were submissive?
>>> It was not till after I listened to Your Surrender Series. Up until then I did not have a lot of success with hypnosis. I was too analytical. I am an engineer. I relate very strongly to the image of the control box. Those MP3s opened things up for me.
What appeals to you about submission and also hypnosis?
>>> I have so many people dependent on me at times it stresses me out. There are so many times that I have to be the one in charge and take responsibility for things. I don’t really enjoy that it turns out. I am not complaining. I have a good life. But it is so pleasant to have the someone take charge and at least for a little while take responsibility for me. I guess I feel special for that time. A bit selfish on my part, but I do enjoy it.
Thank you for hosting this event again.
Love the picture by the way. They say every card player has “tells”. I wonder what hers is and what they are saying. :-)
Mike, I changed the link. Thanks for telling me :)
It’s not selfish to enjoy letting someone else take control and it isn’t selfish to want to feel special. You *are* special, by the way.
1. I am not sure exactly when I made the realization that I was submissive. I believe it was while I was in college. I know that I first experienced kink through a girlfriend in my senior year in college, who enjoyed both sides. I also know that I enjoyed the submissive side much more then.
2. Several things appeal to me about submission, not least among them the sexual excitement, however I think it is much deeper than that. I love to give pleasure whether sexual or not, and it gives me a chance to be a pleaser. I also am a very in control person in my daily life, and submission allows me to let go, relax, and turn control over to someone else.
Hypnosis also gives me a chance to relax, clear my mind and, in some wonderful cases, give up control of my mind and body.
Thank you, Web. One of the things that I really like about you is your sincerity when you say you enjoy pleasing whether sexual or not. For many women – both the more traditional and the more kinky inclined – knowing her partner wants to please by doing non-sexual things without expectations makes her more interested in the sexual :)
When did I realize I was submissive? I remember playing the butler to my cousin and her friends one night at a sleep-over when I was about nine or ten. They were all about three or four years older than me. I became very excited taking orders, bringing them things and calling them “My Lady”. I don’t know who came up with the game. Maybe there was a budding Domme amongst those Junior High aged girls. I didn’t really know what all that meant at the time but after that most, if not all, of my sexual fantasies involved me being a servant or slave to a woman or group of women.
What appeals to me about submission is the act itself. It is very arousing for me to please women and to receive orders from them. If I ever had a female boss I think I might explode. I am not a masochist, being beaten or tortured has never really appealed to me. I suppose if that is what my Mistress wanted I would happily go along with it but it is not something I would ever seek out for its own sake.
What appeals to me about hypnosis? I’m not sure. It has always been a turn on. Maybe it has to do with sapping my will either in a real or imagined way. I like to think that when I am hypnotized there is no way I could even try to resist. I want to be totally obedient without any will of my own. I know from what I have read that this is not really possible but a guy can dream can’t he.
Thank You Lady Julia for asking these questions. I really enjoyed thinking about them and because I was obeying an order I excited by you yet again.
Humbly Yours,
Jason
Jason, I meant to add that I love your butler story :) When I was a little girl we used to play “Good Guys and Evil Cowgirl”. I would tie my friends up and wouldn’t let them loose til they agreed to do what I wanted. I seem to remember some begging involved as well :)
Hello Lady Julia-
I wasn’t quite sure where I should post the results of my first day so I decided to go with this one.
I drew my card as soon as I got out of bed this morning and put it in my pant’s pocket without looking at it as per you instructions.
I was fairly busy today so I only thought about the card in my pocket a few times. Had I had more free time I’m sure I would have been thinking about it and you at least once every minute. I had planned to pull the card out at three o’clock but at about ten to three I put my hand in my pocket and without thinking pulled the card out and looked at it. I had just been thinking about the card and yet when I put my hand in my pocket and felt the card I thought “What is this?” and pulled it out. I think it is kind of weird that I would pull it out by mistake just a few minutes before I had planned to look at it. Perhaps my subconscious mind just couldn’t wait any longer or perhaps that was when you wanted me to look at it.
Anyway, the card was the Queen of Spades. It was kind of a relief because I had been a little concerned about “edging” if I had drawn a Jack. I have never done that before.
The rest of the day passed without incident. I continued to carry the card with me and think of you and your control of myself and the cards often.
Thank you for allowing me to participate in this experience. I am looking forward to seeing where the exercise takes me.
Humbly Yours,
Jason
Jason, you’re doing very well. How does it feel knowing you aren’t controlling your touching activities? Is it as exciting as you imagined it would be?
Lady Julia-
It feels great to have my touching controlled. It is only my second day and I’m finding I can’t stop thinking about the card. I have been checking your site almost constantly all morning. I really am enjoying the loss of control.
Yes, it is as exciting as I had hoped. In fact, I think it may already have exceeded my expectations.
I’m beginning to suspect that I enjoy submission even more than I had thought.
Thank You for giving me this gift.
Humbly Yours,
Jason