Hello Fellas,
I am pretty ill at the moment. Nothing to worry about, but something the doctor said would likely stay with me for several days. I honestly do not feel like even contemplating what direction I want each of you to go, so I’m going to do something that wouldn’t be uncommon in an every day situation (sometimes life just gets in the way, doesn’t it?). You need to step up and make a decision: you may end this activity now and decide how you end it (release, no release, etc) or you may continue on and do what you think I would want you to do. Most of you know me well enough that I believe you can think like me :)
Keep reporting every day until you finish or until I return. I want to know you’re doing ok. I’ll read and approve your comments, but that’s about all the time I will spend online for a few days unless some major question arises from one of you.
I’m not sure this makes sense. I hope so. Time to rest.
Hugs,
Lady Julia
Lady Julia,
Today Vee ended x2 my time of “no release” – 2 days short of 2 weeks.
I will continue listening to the music “teasing to the edge” whilst I also do the exercise on SW. I think that is what you would say.
Please look after yourself.
Jay
I thought about what you might want Lady Julia as your post suggested we might do. A dangerous proposition indeed to try to think of what a sexy. powerful Domme might want. I Broke it down somewhat. I figured you would want something teasing and then I also figured you would want denial. Go figure. Chuckles. The 3 days of listening and watching with no touching has come to an end so I also figured some touching. Mmmmmmm have not touched in over 4 days actually.
I put on some of the same videos of girls touching themselves with the erotic music I used in the 3 previous days of no touching. I applied some Vaseline to my finger tips and teased all around the head and up and down the sensitive underside watching the videos. I worked to get close which did not take long and then edged for 2 minutes before stopping for a few minutes to let the excitement subside a bit then started again. I repeated that 10 times for a total of about an hour. Mmmmmm I am soooo in need now. Obviously I did not release. Pleeding, begging eyes looking over to you.
2/27/2010
Mmmmmmm soooo wanted to touch again but also desired to be very obedient and pleasing. It is the weekend so I have plenty of time to try to do both. The touching I definitely can do but the being pleasing and being obedient Lady Julia will have to decide. To be obedient and pleasing I started off with sitting here and relaxing in complete silence and closed My eyes fantasized about being completely under the control of a very sexy Dominant such as Lady Julia. I actually do better with complete silence when fantasizing as opposed to listening to music. I fantasized that Lady Julia was sitting across from me as I sat teasing myself in a way that I thought might be pleasing to her. Mmmmm this was very exciting for me. I was very aroused at times doing this. My concentration slipped a few times but for the most part I remained focused. I fantasized like this for 45 minutes. I am not saying I was in a trance but when I finished it was kind of like emerging from a deep sleep only that I remembered the dream. I felt great.
About an hour later I returned to the computer for a touching session. I put on some of the videos of girls touching themselves I have mentioned I enjoy and used some Vaseline on my finger tips to tease all around the head. When I got close I edged for 2 minutes and stopped. I wiped off the Vaseline and applied one wooden clothes pin the the sensitive underside just below the head. Mmmmm I enjoy that sensation. An erotic burning it supplies, just enough to drive my excitement down a little bit. I left the pin on for 2 minutes and removed it. I repeaded this getting close, edging for two minutes and applying the clothes pin for two minutes a total of ten times. Soooo needy now, panting but feels great, hoping to be pleasing.
WWLJW on a bumper sticker? That would be cool. Surrendering control of arousal to another person has been the most fun I have had in ages. It gives me the same exhilirating joy that I always got on roller coasters. What is exciting about the roller coaster is not just the anticipation followed by the temporary suspension of gravity. It is that you have entrusted yourself to the person at the controls.
The day after completion of Phase 2, I reverted to my usual pattern of porn viewing and release each morning before work. But it is just not the same as it was before the recent activity. For 2 days, I had no urge to release at all. But I was not unhappy, had no viagra anxieties. I went through the days with many little peaks of arousal, not surprisingly triggered by music. In the car, at work, at the mall, there is always some background music. I would find myself tuning in to the lyrics and having little quickie erotic dreams. It’s really more fun this way, although I don’t think it will go on indefinitely. Thanks Lady Julia, for shaking my world. I hope you are back to full cowgirl strength soon.
3/01/2010
Mmmmmm smiles excitedly reading the release post for Lady Julia. So want to be obedient and pleasing. Thank you Lady Julia for allowing this release. Mmmmm I am soooo in need of this right now. After 6 days of teasing. Yes it has been 6 days since I last released.
I put on a number of videos of girls touching themselves. I apply Vaseline to my finger tips and tease around the head and sensitive underside to get close. Each time I get close I flick the back of the head three times. I repeated that 10 times and then released. Mmmmmmm took about 45 minutes. Was delicious. All the while I imagined how pleasing this would be for Lady Julia if she were standing over me watching.
Julia Dear,
I do hope you feel better soon.Beastie and I have been following your posts and ad libbing to suit me.Your blogs have helped break down the walls,if I explained that right.Just want you to know that since I haven’t e-mailed you in a while.
Warmest Regards,
Laura